Love Smarter

We were given a looong weekend at school, so I decided to go home. I miss home so much-my bed, my family, everything! I’m happy I’d be able to spend time here.

So, one of my friends came to visit me this weekend. Last night we were discussing certain past situations and jokingly labelled them as "emotional terrorism”. We laughed and continued on our conversation, enjoying a full evening of each other's company, snacks, and movies. After waking up this morning, our conversation wandered down the path of romance, but this time we kept the discussion in the present or future tense.

At one point, this bubbly friend looked me straight in the eye and told me that the only way to have a successful relationship was to not let go of your emotions. She insisted we needed to evaluate a potential partner with our logic, rather than our hearts and date someone for a while before even beginning to open up emotionally. I listened and nodded.

Later this afternoon I was hanging out with some friends and surprised myself when I made a comment during another conversation about romance. I swear, I talk about more topics than this. It just happened to be the subject of the weekend apparently! LOL Basically I suggested that I could enter into all the actions of a relationship without any of the emotional attachment or strings that came with it. I said perhaps it would be better if I kept my feelings in check and just carried through with the motions of dating to avoid the possibility of being vulnerable or hurt. My friend expressed surprise that I would be able to do this.

I realize how ridiculous that statement was! First of all, after thinking more about what I said I realized I don't think I am capable of doing something like that. Secondly, even if I was, I don't want to be a person like that.

But I didn't trust my own thoughts, because as already proven, they can be faulty at times. The only thing that heals those wounds is love. So though I had momentarily been convinced that putting my heart in time out would help keep it safe, I know that the ability to love and feel is the only thing turning the wrongs of our life to right.

Rather than shutting out the chances to love, it's important to let it rest in the arms of its rightful companion which is ”WISDOM". Making mistakes in love is just a part of being alive, but rather than closing it out and declaring it bad, it is important we learn from our errors and move on to love more successfully in the future.

So I am taking my heart out of time out and giving myself a break. I will not allow my past to emotionally terrorize my present and fill my future with fearful inaction. Instead I will learn from the past and make wiser decisions about my future. But my decisions are to love smarter, not love less, because loving smarter lets me love stronger.