Nothing is Simple

I used to lay in my bed and tried to find a reason.

A reason to stay..
A reason to leave..
A reason to give up..
A reason to believe..
A reason to remember..
A reason to forget..
A reason to love..
A reason to hate..
A reason just about.. everything.

Where did I go wrong? What's wrong with me?

I got tired of finding a reason so I stopped. Sometimes all you need is just to stop for a minute. Flashback memories might kill, but they come and go as well as feelings.

Nothing is simple. Why make them more complicated anyway?

Small Group

This is a group binded by our love for God.

@ Pies Surprise.

@ Appetite.

@ a Korean Resto in Ledesco.
I'm always looking forward to meet with these girls! They inspire me, they keep the fire burning in my heart, they water the seeds that God has already planted, they help me find my way back when I'm kinda lost, they make me feel and believe that I am not alone in my race with God.

We love to explore new places, eat, talk about God & simply pray for each other. :)

Selective Amnesia

March 29, 2012

If I ever push you away, I don't really mean to. When I tell you, I don't want to talk about it, I do. I am just looking for the right words. Give me a minute, and if I can tell you, I will. I'll try to be a struggling mix of real and perfect at the same time. At the moment, I am working on the ratio. When I get really quiet sometimes it is because I have too much to say. I have thought of too many things to tell you all at once and I don't know what to say first. I get immaturely jealous of anyone who gets to see you on a daily basis. I miss you really easy but I also like that we can be apart and we are both okay. Space is good, too. I love the way we love some of the same things. And I love how we love entirely different things. My head is a complicated pile of thoughts, and fears, and cravings, and dreams, and this tangled up nostalgia for the past and somehow, the future. I am flawed and I am human and I am broken and I am trying. And i love you.

Everyone's talking about Simsimi!

My news feed is flooded with posts about Simsimi or different conversations with this super-advanced chatting robot. I did try too! Haha. Most of the time this yellow chicken talks nonsense. But I admit chatting with this thingy was kinda fun. Here's a sample of our conversation. I typed my name just for the hell of it and look what I've got! This really made me chuckle!!! :P

PS
You can talk about anything! Just be ready for his responses.
(Not even sure if he's a "HE") LOL.

You wanna talk to Simisimi too? Click HERE. :)

Sometimes, hugs are much better than apologies.

You cannot easily erase the pain by saying “sorry”. Do your move. Make her feel that you’re sincerely open to take chances just to give her happiness. When she is wrapped in your arms while you’re kissing her hair, she feels important. For her, it is a sign of love from you. Every girl deserves to feel the way they want to be loved. Likewise, if you did something reckless and made her cry, just do things to make her smile.

All your effort will not be wasted as long as you’re willing to do it. Give your best as much as you say “sorry” a million times. Sometimes, apologies are not enough. Girls want to see that you are worth for second chances. Then, all you gotta do is prove it.

You Know Who You Are

We may not be perfect. We may not always be together every moment of everyday. We may get distracted sometimes, but I know that you are what I want. I know when we are together I feel like I belong, I feel like that’s where I’m supposed to be. I know days go by without us being physically together but I know that it will pass. I know people try and get in the way of us but they will never get through. Think about it! We have made it so far… and we can make it even further. I have faith in us and I know you do too. Not by obligation but because you actually love me, I feel it. I know it. I love us, with our imperfections and everything.

#Waking up thinking of you, made me write this. Good morning Zir. C:

1-28-12

Fight for me. I want you to beg me to stay and tell me how horrible you're doing without me. Show me you need me and want me in your life. That you'll do anything to make me stay. Show me that I'm the only girl for you, and no other girl compares. Chase after me. Don't let me give up, show me I'm making a big mistake by leaving. Show me how important I am to you. Don't just let me walk away...

2011

2011 is the year that went by so fast, maybe a little too fast. It’s the year your so called friend walks out of your life, and it’s the year you realize who the real ones are. It’s the year you felt the most pressure to the point where you gave up so many times but you’re still learning how to get back up. It’s the year you said you were going to accomplish great things yet you feel like you’ve just wasted time. It’s the year you cried over too many pointless things, too many times. It’s the year you look back on all the lifetime memories in which you find yourself missing the people in them. But it’s also the year you move on, slowly, and you realize that everything will be okay. And it did, eventually. :)

#2012pleasebegood

Dear GOD

Thank you for inviting Lolo to be with You on this day. We are not saddened by his death because we know he is happy and fortunate enough to celebrate this day personally with You. Have a Merry Christmas everyone. C: #bittersweet

This Part Right Here

Noah: Would you just stay with me?

Allie: Stay with you? What for? Look at us, we’re already fightin’.

Noah: Well that’s what we do, we fight… You tell me when I am being an arrogant son of a bitch and I tell you when you are a pain in the ass. Which you are, 99% of the time. I’m not afraid to hurt your feelings. You have like a 2 second rebound rate, then you’re back doing the next pain-in-the-ass thing.

Allie: So what?

Noah: So it’s not gonna be easy. It’s gonna be really hard. We’re gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day. Will you do something for me, please? Just picture your life for me? 30 years from now, 40 years from now? What’s it look like? If it’s with him, go. Go! I lost you once, I think I can do it again. If I thought that’s what you really wanted. But don’t you take the easy way out.


-The Notebook

Man vs. Woman: The Pathetic Truth

Woman asks: If I sleep with 3 men, everyone calls me a slut. But when a man sleeps with 8 girls, everyone calls him a real man. How come?

Confucius replies: ‘It’s very simple. When one lock can be opened by 3 different keys, it’s a bad lock. But when one key can open 8 different locks, we call it a master key’.


Not good. SIGH.

Santa's Not Coming

I’d really like to spend the holidays with you. The seasons are greeting us, the night’s just right, and mistletoe’s aplenty. I’ll hang some LED lights,pull the plastic Christmas tree off the shelves in the garage, and brew us a nice cup of instant hot chocolate. I’ll grab you by the waist or you'll probably grab mine and close my eyes, thinking all the while that Santa’s not coming to my house this year. I’ve already got what I want from my wishlist, and that’s you. #you-know-who-you-are

Good Morning Sunshine ^^

BCT (Bacon Cheese Tomatoes) Sandwich and a cup of hot chocolate for breakfast. A yummy way to start the day. :)

Sedong Hits It Hard

No words can describe how I feel right now. Except maybe my prayers go out to the victims of typhoon Sendong in CDO and Iligan, Philippines. This picture is of a father carrying his daughter… His dead daughter. Right now more than 600 people died because of typhoon Sendong, and about 300 are still missing. Please help them. Let's all pray for them.
*Not my photo

Words are Useless

There are certain people who come into your life and leave a mark. Their place in your heart is tender; a bruise of longing, a pulse of unfinished business. Just hearing their names pushes and pulls at you in a hundred ways. And when you try to define those hundred ways, describe them even to yourself, words are useless.

No Looking Back

Dear PAST,
Thank you for all the lessons.

Dear FUTURE,
I'M READY.

Just Saying

What do you feel when you love someone? If distilled down to it’s core components, what would those be? Yes, love is an emotion, a feeling, a wanting, and a “being”. We know it feels good, but what specific feelings, wantings, and beings are present when we feel love?

Love is Accepting.

Acceptance is labeling someone as “okay” and having no particular desire to change them. Who they are is perfectly fine with you. You pose no condition on whether you will love them or not. This is called unconditional love. When your love is conditional, the moment they step outside your set of conditions, love wanes. Consequently, love is rarely a constant state but fluctuates based on our degree of acceptance.

Love is Appreciating.

Appreciation is one step beyond acceptance. Its when your focus is on what you like about another. We look at them and feel this sweeping appreciation for who they are, their joy, their insights, their humor, their companionship, etc. When someone says they are “in love” with another, they mean their appreciation is so enormous for this person that it consumes their every thought.

Love is Wanting Another to Feel Good.

We want those we love to be happy, safe, healthy, and fulfilled. We want them to feel good in all ways, physically, mentally and emotionally.


OOOHH MEEEN! These chick-flick movies made me want
to talk about love again! Pfft.

Even when you're hanging by a THREAD

Life is a series of bridges. The hardest part is deciding which ones to cross and which to burn. Figuring out who to leave behind and who is worth risking it all. Who will be there waiting with open arms at the other end? Who will be cutting the rope as soon as you step on? You realize whether you’ve made the right decision when you’re about halfway across, but by that point, it’s too late to turn around. You have to push forward, slowly and carefully or quickly and recklessly. Whichever way you choose, you can’t look down, you can’t be afraid, there is no room for second guessing. Even when you’re hanging by a thread, even if the foundation is shaking, even when the fire at your back creeps closer, even when you lose sight of the other side, keep your head up, eyes forward, and faith strong. Doing all you can to resist the temptation to jump.

Cool With IT

I'm weird, yeah, what else is new.

I don't mind being called strange. Strange is a definition of not being pulled in by the crowd and do what everybody else is doing because that's exactly how my whole life has been. I've been so.. different (if that's how I simplify it, and to make it look sane).

You know my old habit of how I write stuffs on my notepad just to keep my thoughts flowing and it's not just about one particular stuff, occasionally about family stuffs, mostly about what I go through, what randomly pops in my head. So I really don't mind if some people don't get it, I'm cool with it.


P.S.
I've been kinda busy these past few weeks. :3
Finals, Research Study, Pre-oral defense! Pfft.
Everything's over and done. Thank God. :DD
HELLOOOOO SEMBREAK!!!! Ugh. I'm 'effin excited to go home.